We need to talk. You are beginning to get on my nerves. Every weekend this Summer has been like a non stop party to you. You constantly invite all your peeps over for a long weekend and trash the place. There's garbage piling up outside and it's not mine. You expect me to clean up after you and I'm so sick of it.
You have this skewed sense of right and wrong. You make up your own rules for what suits you and you don't play fair. You walk around like you are above the law, that rules don't apply to you and when you get caught you lie and bribe your way out of it. Sure I'll admit it, your bad-boy attitude is partially what I fell in love with way back in the day. Waking up in the morning to hear about your Robin Hood gallivanting the night before while everyone was asleep was seductive but I've grown up and you haven't. You are acting like a spoiled child and I'm over it. If you break the rules you have to pay the price.
I'm falling out of love. All you do is take and take and never give anything back in return. I'm sick of giving you money and it's never enough. I work so hard to keep up with you and I have nothing to show for it. Would it be so hard for you to go out of your way just once and do something nice for me in return? You are so damn selfish; even the neighbors are getting sick of your behaviour. You refuse to see what's right - it's like you are walking around with blinders on oblivious that your actions are hurting others. I don't want to be associated with you when you are acting like an ass. I've given you fifteen years of my life - some of the best times I've had have been with you - but I feel like I have nothing to show for it. Should I regret my decision? Don't you want me to be happy?
It's not me, it's you. Things are going to have to change around here or I'm walking out that door and not looking back. No forwarding address or phone number for you to try and get me back, if you lose me it will be for good. I'm not saying I'm perfect but if you don't make some serious commitments to me I'm not joking about breaking up with you. You are breaking my heart and there's only so much more I can take.
You should know, I have flirted with other cities. There are many that would love for me to belong to them. I've never cheated on you but I've had the opportunity. I have even gone so far as to meet up for a drink but it never went anywhere because I felt like you were there waiting for me and that deep down you still love me but I'm beginning to wonder. Could you please finish just ONE of the projects you've started? You promised me you'd have the road in front of the house finished up in just three months. It's been almost a year.
Take some time and think about what I've said. But don't take too long, I'm not going to wait around forever for you to change. Start acting like an important part of my life, remind me again of the good things you have and stop trying to impress the people that don't even live here, impress me. You can start by taking a shower, you smell awful.
I'm hurt and confused from trying to love you.
Me
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